Holiday not going so well....

hey2....i was so excited for the holidays before but now i feel like killing myself....
almost everytime when i stay at home doing nothing enjoying my holiday...surely a someone (my mum) will want to spoil it...haish....what 2 do, maybe she's juz jealous because i get to spend my holiday but she doesnt have a holiday....oh well, its not my choice to open a shop that needs to be open everyday...then she blabs about how her always waiting for me and asking for money....damn it...if you feel like i'm such a burden why did you wanna have kids at the 1st place right...for the waiting part...oh come on, as if i have never waited for her before...i waited for her almost everyday for her to go back from shah alam to our house in kote damansara....if i ask for my own car...yea rite...like that will happen....surely until i die u would never want to buy anything for me....i'm juz a burden rite...
haish....totally cant wait to get out of this house....trust me, when i am out of this house i wont even want to bother my family anymore...i will just lead my own life even without my family in it....