Love or Friendship? I want it both.

Hey guys, I know it has been ages and i also have broken too many promises now. Its been pretty hectic since im back and a few other problems came. WTF rite?! Well, thats life tough. And i have been missing the guys so badly now. It kills me not to hang out with them for almost a month now. I hate u guys coz ur making me missing u all. Haha. And of coz there some issues yet to be solved. I am also missing Zam. It has been ages since i've talked to him. Feeling like heading north just to meet up with him. Sigh. Wish i could do that.

Change of topic, let me tell u guys what i have been up to after the China trip. I think half (maybe more) of this post is more than enuf to brag about them. Haha. I arrived in Malaysia arnd 5am on the 17th. Arrived home, hugged my cozy little bed and woke up arnd 2pm. Then head out to catch Angels and Demons at the cinema which totally did not fulfill my expectations coz they totally rewrite the story all over again. In someway ignores a reader like me who would like to see what i read comes up in the screen, ya'know? Btw, it hink i didnt mention this before but i finished the 2nd book of twilight's saga. Maybe some of u might think that the book is gayish, lame, corny same as the readers but let me tell u something, Stephenie Meyer is a great writer in my opinion. And i used to be one of the ppl who thinks that the book from the twilight's saga is lame. Argghh.. It kills me that i have to wait till next month for the third book to arrive in my nearest bookstore. I have returned to the phase where i always held a book in my hand and escape into it. Call me lame or a bookworm or wuteva u want but thats just me. Im a bit obsessive-cumpolsive in a way. I have differents kind of obsession or interest at a different phase of time. In other words, i get bored easily. Haha. That is why no guy is standing by my side for now. Guys are like math problems. Get what i mean? Stay tune for my next post which i will type in the meaning if u still dun know what it is. Type to u later.

A better person or Just fine the way u are?

Hey guys, this is just a random post of my thoughts. Before i get into it, let me ask u a question. Would u like ur lover to be the one who would always make u feel to be a better person? Or would u like him/her to make u feel cool and fine just the way u are? I know its kinda weird of me to b asking this question but ive been watching a few movies and tv shows and it totally ignores me that there always have some kind of line that implies that the character's lover make him or her to be a better person. I still cant detect why im kinda irritated with this thing and suddenly want to post a blog about it. Haha. Hey, at least u guys r reading it rite? Okay, that was just a detour now back to the topic.

I asked one of my friend this question and he answered that he would rather be with a girl who makes him feel cool and fine just the way it is. The reason is coz he only would like to change to be a better person just for himself and nobody else. Truthfully, i am amazed dazed by this answer. He has a point too rite? I mean, u can improve urself to be a better person and the reason is not for or bcoz of any1 but for ur ownself. I think dats pwetty awesome. Although, i think its pwetty awesome too to have sum1 who makes u feel to be a better person. I think this kind of feeling implies mostly in coming of age relationship. In my opinion-lah. Hehe. Forgive my lah, i cant escape the fact that im still malaysian and not denying it.

Now im gonna tell u what my answer to my own question. Haha. To me, it doesnt matter if the one i love makes me feel like i wanna be a better person or cool just the way i am as long as i love him and he loves me. But if it still comes up the choices between those two, i would still want both. I know im greedy. Hehe. In a few things i would like him to make me feel cool just the way i am like putting up with my stupid and weird habits which seemd to be developing more and more everyday. Such as when i smile or chuckle while texting eventough its not dat funny, or even maybe crying and singing while im driving when a sad song is on the radio. Also, i would like him to make me feel that i can improve myself in a few other things. Such as learning to cook a new dish so i can personally make it for him.

L O V E is just another word i never learned to pronounce

Hey guys, i know its been a month since my last update. Have been busy with examinations and helping out my mum with the shop. I am heading to China this Saturday, so maybe there will be less update also after this. Noted that i really2 do miss updating this blog. Hehe. and pf coz miss you guys. Haha.

My finals was not really good actually and im really2 scared about the results that will be coming out soon. Ahhhh.... Help me!! Hopefully i wont have to repeat any papers, oh please that would be a blow and it would definitely blow my chances to reach my desired pointer before i graduate. Sigh. Wish me luck u guys and pray for me. Hehe.

There is a while bunch of stories but unfortunately i cant really share with u int his post, i will definitely update u guys in the next post. I am totally drained and need to get some sleep now. I will drop by sooner or later k? Type to u later.