Another Thin Line

Hey guys, sorry again for not updating weekly like i hoped to but its been quite rough time for me this past few weeks after coming back from China. Furthermore, there are also a few other issues came up and have and still bothering my mind. I also think that i should tell u guys that i suffer from a certain disorder, its not serious anything and it certainly is common especially when i am turning older day after day. I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder, its like excessive, uncontrollable and often irrational worry about everyday things that is disproportionate to the actual source of worry. If u guys wanna know more about it please google it or find the terms at wikipedia. That is what i always do when i wanna know about something.

Oh well, i know for a fact is not that serious or chronic in my case but it is actually affecting my studies. This anxiety disorder also commonly associated with insomnia. Insomnia is a symptom of sleeping disorder. As you all may know we young people usually sleep late i do too. But the problem for me now is that i cant get my self to sleep at night. For example when i am on the bed by 12 or 1am trying to sleep i just cant, i just keep lying on the bed awake. The earliest i can fall asleep is around 4am. Last night i slept at 6am. I spent lying on the bed forcing myself to sleep for 3hours. Believe me, i have tried everything i can to manage this sleeping problem but nothing seems to work. For example, when i sleep late i try to wake myself early in the morning so, i can adjust the time of my sleeping but still i slept at around 4am at my attempt.

Obviously when i sleep late i will surely wake up late, and eventhough i had enough sleep if i say so myself but i still feel tired and always have this headache. I dont think that i overslept. Lets say if i fall asleep at 5 or 6 am, i will wake up at 12 - 2pm. The most late i will wake up is 2pm. Of course this become a big issue for me coz i cant wake up early to to classes. I have missed a bunch of classes in my first week of semester. I am scared that this problem will drag on, and i cant afford to screw up my last 2semester. I am worst than dead if that happens. Some friends advised me that i should see a doctor or a psychiatrist, i mean im not crazy or anything but i think i do really need to seek professional help coz its affecting my studies and all. Do u guys have any suggestions on how i should deal with my problem so that i can avoid seeing a doctor or psychiatrist.

I mean i dun have anything against doctor or psychiatrist, its just sometimes that they give me the creeps sometimes. Plus, my parents dun really depend or believe on relying on medicine. That is why when i get sick i just stay at home and deal with it. My mom thinks that this will train your body to not depend entirely on medicine. I do think this is good also but in a few cases i think it is better for us to see a doctor. Furthermore, my mom absolutely definitely for surely DO NOT believe in this psychriatic craps. She just thinks that it is pointless and dont quite believe in it i guess.

Im still going to try a few methods that i know that can fix my sleeping problems. Hopefully it will get resolved soon. Just hoping that it wont get that chronic coz i heard some cases that its pretty bad and certainly affect their daily life. U guys should really give me ur suggestions and thanks again for viewing my blog. I will drop in as soon as i can. Type to u later. :D