GUYS, GUYS, GUYS...

Valentine is coming!! To all of the dudes and studs out there. Stop figuring out what girls or women want PLEASE!!

To be honest girls want a lot of things and sometimes we don't even know what we want and cant even make up our minds in some situation especially in relationship and shopping. Haha.

Another thing sometimes you guys make one simple thing SO complicated. When we ask some space doesn't mean we are having another guy, it only means that we JUST WANT SOME SPACE!! For instance, i might say that i am an independent type and i LOVE my freedom and used to it already. I really cant handle if a guy who always want to control my every movement. SERIOUSLY guys, when u have a girlfriend it doesn't mean that she's ur property or belong to u. U cannot, i repeat CANNOT own a person!! And that also mean u cant control his or her every movement. If this happens someone is bound to lie and from my perspective this type of relationship wont sustain long.

Back to my point, some stuff is as simple as the sentence state. If we say we want some space, it just means we want some SPACE. Get it??

A little message to the people out there. Your partner isn't someone u own. In the words of Taylor Swift, 'You Belong WITH Me' not 'You Belong T0 Me'. I would like a kind of relationship where we will tell all of our stories, like a bestfriend and the dirty little secrets about ourselves will be out there. A partner is suppose to be the companion in our life.
Something for u guys to think about in the mood of valentine ;)

Type to u later
xOXo

My Animal Test Analysis

Here is my analysis:

1. A kind of person you will be attracted to in a real life situation is those who are unbridled and free.  (I love free spirits, they have their own perception of life and look things differently)
2. In the process of courtship, the approach that makes you feel irresistible is being creative, so you're not bored. (Process of courtship?? LOL. It is true that i get bored easily, i need some1 creative to be with me and certainly leave an impression)
3. The impression you'd like to give to your lover is loyal and faithful. (I think I am not the cheating type, hopefully)
4. One reason that would make you break up with your partner is his or her being ruthless, cold-blooded or ironic. (Urgh...Cold blooded? Who likes that?? Really?)
5. The kind of relationship you'd like to build with your partner is one where you can talk about everything and anything. No secrets are kept. (That does seem like an ideal relationship to me)
6. Would you commit adultery? Society and morality worry you. You wouldn't do anything wrong after marriage. (Wow..See?? I am not the cheating type after all)
7. About marriage, you think marriage is a precious thing. Once you get married, you'll treasure your partner very much. (Haha. The actual question is will i get married?)
8. About love, at this moment, you don't want to be tied by a steady relationship. You just want to flirt. (This is partly true, but i miss someone badly)

U guys wanna give this test a try? Click HERE

Hey guys, I was bored this time hence i just took some random personality test. This test just ask you to pick out your animal choice in a situation. Just a random post :)

Type to u later.

XoxO.

I am MISSING U, U & ONLY U

Dear boy,
I thought this was lost and long gone but...

Why did u leave?
Why did u have to go?
Why can't things be like it used to be?
Why don't u talk to me anymore?
Why don't u see me the way i see u?
Why do u have to be so far away?
Why can't u see me that i will always be here for u?
Why do i feel this way about u???
Why you??

I really2 miss our times that we SHARED together. I miss our SPECIAL moments. I miss our CRAZY moments. I miss that comfortable feeling when u sit NEXT TO ME in the car without any words at all. I miss the way u glide ur HAND through the wind in the car. I MISS talking to u. I miss LOOKING at u. I miss being ANGRY at u. I miss LAUGHING with u. I miss BEING with u.

I just miss u, u and only u.....♥

Wish you Were Here- Pink Floyd :'(

So, so you think you can tell 

Heaven from Hell,

Blue skys from pain.

Can you tell a green field

From a cold steel rail?

A smile from a veil?

Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade

Your heros for ghosts?

Hot ashes for trees?

Hot air for a cool breeze?

Cold comfort for change?

And did you exchange

A walk on part in the war

For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.

We're just two lost souls

Swimming in a fish bowl,

Year after year,

Running over the same old ground.

What have we found?

The same old fears.

Wish you were here.

This song is able to make me cry every time :'(

Eeeeek....!!

Hey guys, a quickie update from me. Damn its already 4.30 am and I am still awake. My sleeping time is definitely messed up.

What have i been up to today? Woke up late, as usual. But then i had to wait for my brother to finish school coz apparently i have to take him to cut his hair  short. Sigh. I am a driver it seems. Another day is fine but i had to go to my UNI to apply for my transcript. Oh well, i had to wait till 4pm and I ended up picking him up from school coz apparently he "missed" the van. Of course, when he came inside the car the first thing topic that came out is his girls trouble. I don't even know what to say to him any more, if i do give out some advice does he actually listens to it?? Sigh. Hard being a consultant really, i mean how does a psychiatrist handles all of the patients craps.

Oh well, back to the story. We ended up at a restaurant at Section 7 to meet up with some friends after i got my hair cut. Haha. It wasn't planned but I only trimmed it a little coz my head is like a bush of wilderness. My hair is so damn thick, literally. Oh yeah, my brother cut his hair too. Finally a real short hair, not like the last time i bought him to the saloon. Sigh. What do little brothers would do without their awesome sister eh?? Haha. He was hungry so he ordered kuey teow goreng and french fries. I had to pick up my mom then drop her off to the store. Sigh. I am a true driver ain't i?? After i dropped my mom off i went back to the restaurant to get him and on the way home he ended up with this red rashes all over his hands and legs. My reaction was like

"Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...........

Yuckeeeeeeeeeee!!!"

Haha. The rashes started spreading coz he wont stop scratching it. Then i assumed it was the shrimp that was in the kuey teow he ate earlier but he said that he never had an allergic reaction to seafood before this. So, i had to run around Kota Damansara to find an available clinic just for him. Really li'l bro, what would u do without me?? Haha. We went in the doctor's room and he was being such a pussy when the doctor wanted to inject him with a needle. SERIOUSLY!! No matter how big of a man you are, my li'l bro you will still be scared of the NEEDLE!! Haha. Sigh. Gedix lebeh la my li'l brother nie. I think i was supposed to be a male and him the female. Something got mixed up somewhere. Kah Kah Kah....

After we went home, he straight went to sleep. Here's a pic of him sleeping....

He got a huge bed while i am still using the old and small one. Lucky prick!! Anak manje kn. What to do...
Hahahahahahaha.

Type to u later.
xOXo

Who's gonna catch me when i fall??

I was trying really hard not to post this emo shit but i just cant help it. I really really have to get this off my chest. I am having those kind of time. Not that time of the month (the red light) but the 'feeling lonely' time.
After i have finished my studies and doing nothing besides than eat, sleep till noon, hanging out and catching movies. It really made me think how pathetic i am and how my life seem so meaningless right now. I have no job, not even studying and cant make up my own damn mind. I just felt like a complete loser, i mean a REAL LOSER!!

Even though i still have my friends and still see them frequently I still feel 'alone'. Let me describe this feeling for you guys, when u hang out with ur friends or even surrounded by a lot of people have u guys ever felt so lonely like u r alone in that time and place and you cant even hear anyone talking like they seem so far away from you. I do, most of the time actually. It feels like im trapped inside my own damn world and no one is ever gonna give a damn, really.

My family has this MYOB motto from the beginning. Oh, MYOB means Mind Your Own Business. My parents are only home at night and i dont really spend that much quality time with my family. I am closest with my little brother and i just hope that i am a good sister to him only coz my family is messed up behind closed door. Everybody just dont mind and do their own business even though we live in the same roof. Things have gotten pretty quiet at home recently i mean it doesnt even feel like home unless im in my room though. If I am somewhere else, it feels like i am in an empty house. To be honest, i dont even know the people who lives inside this house. Maybe that is why when there is a chance for me to spend time with them i would pass coz i don't know how to do that and dont even know what to talk to them about. I know that my parents work coz they are supporting me and believe me i have had the pleasure of hearing that lecture a million times. But when i make an effort to redeem myself to them they just dont see it i guess. Some people say that family especially parents only sees our mistakes and wont care much about our success or achievement. Maybe this is a part for me to be stronger to face the world in the future. But i am blessed and thankful to Allah that i have them in my life in whatever way they are. I do love them...

Friends? I have my own theory own friends, dont ever get too attached to them or else something is bound to go wrong sooner or later. I mean its not wrong in doing just that but i have my own experience and if i am too attached to them they feel like i am their property (belong to them ONLY). Some people are like that and trust me i have experience it and it does not happened once. I mean i have my own damn life even though it is not that great right now but i still want some me time in my days and i dont mean only sleeping k? I think i am a good friend, am i?? Oh well, i try my best to be for each of them and be a good friend when it comes to that point. I have this friend who has troubles in his love life and he seems so lost and dont know what to do about his situation and i feel like crying when i saw him that way, it seems like his problem became mine. How i wish i could protect him from getting his heart broken but i cant and i do hope he will get out of this soon enough and survive it well. I BELIEVE in him. In another friend issue, it seems like i am not such a good friend. FYI, I am not the planner type, i only go with the flow. If it happens, then it does and if it doesnt, maybe another day. In the words of James Bond, tomorrow never dies. If you dont like the way of having me as a friend then why are you still being my friend I am sure you can find a new friend right? They are a lot of interesting people out there, seriously. Anyway, whatever kind of friends do u guys have im sure u love them rite? Even though, i feel like they are drifting away right now even though this kind of time has come i still love them no matter what. I had a pleasure of having a friend for almost 8 years now, u know who u r my dear. Haha. And not forgetting my guys which i have known for almost 5 years. I also have gain a lot of friends for these past 2 years and it is a lot of fun meeting new people and discover how crazy they are. There are also friends that i have lost through out my entire life. However, no matter what, these people and the memories i have shared with them i will always keep them near my heart and cherish them. To those who had a chance to be my friend at a time in your life, i had the pleasure of knowing you. Truly i am grateful...

After i have typed this in, its not that i hate my life, I just wanna live IT. I dont want to survive it, but LIVE MY LIFE. Haha. Does that makes sense? I have experience a lot through out my 20 years of life and i realize that i am truly blessed with what i have experience. I am thankful to Allah to give me a life.

Another element in my life that is not complete yet. The L word.... L O V E ! !  L'Amour L'amour... ( it also starts with L in another language. haha)
Sigh. I mean i do not look or hunt down for men (not even now, not ever)... I think i have never hunt down for men before, i mean i do look at guys and adore them from FAR only. The previous relationship in my life just happen and it totally wasnt planned. I mean how do you plan love rite? My confession? I might say that i never had a relationship with a guy which i am TRULY in love with him. I mean TRULY and DEEPLY. Sigh. Furthermore, I dont wanna get married, most of my friends know that but when we grow old and as my friends' lives move on who am I going to talk to? I mean it is nice to have the feeling that you have someone to talk to at the end of the day and xkan la u want to bother ur friends when they are preparing their kids for school, taking care of their babies and cater to their husband "needs". Haha. Get what i mean? LOL. Although, I think i will be happy without a man as long as i have my career. OMG. Im gonna be one of those women who is married to their career like Meryl Streep in Devil wears Prada. Hey that doesnt sound so bad though, it is almost awesome. Haha. Oh well, if i do find love i will be truly grateful but if i do not i will always have the one thing to be grateful for, LIFE and I can always love ALLAH.

WOW!! I am impressed that i am able to post this long man. Haha. This post is important coz i had an epiphany halfway typing it. LMAO. Anyways, i hope you guys had the pleasure of reading this post even if it is a bit emo-ish but i just had to let it out somewhere.

Type to u later.
XoxO

A Familiar Face....

Hey guys, I have loads of time in my hands lately that is why i am able to update you guys for 3straight days already. Haha. Aren't you guys proud of me. I'm sure you guys are. Thee hee...



Anyway,what have you guys been up to this week?? Me? I just have been out and spending money which i don,t earn any of it. Thank you Mama! ! Haha. I got a chance to catch Legion on Thursday and it was awesome. the guys who plays Micheal is a good actor actually it feels like he was meant to play that role. His voice, face i mean it suits him pretty well and brought up the character to life. I went with the guys and they were quite disappointed with the movies coz they expected loads of action would be in it. Heh... Guys rite?? They love Action and Comedy. Why cant they just appreciate Drama or Romance once in while. The next day, i was bored out of my mind and decided to catch a movie which happened unexpectedly and guess what movie i watched on Friday. Jeng Jeng...

TOOTH FAIRY ! ! Haha. It was definitely hilarious and Dwayne Johnson has gained his reputation as an actor in Game Plan and Tooth Fairy but is he only able to play main character and execute it finely in kids movie. Oh well, I enjoyed it nevertheless. At one point i laughed the first and LOUDLY too. I think i was the loudest who laughed in the cinema. Hehe. Oh well, he talked about being the best tooth fairy ever, how could u not laugh at that. Hehe.

After the Tooth Fairy movie, I went to meet up with Alia whom just came back from her "hulu" place as she calls it that and we just catch up on a few things. She said that its nice to see a familiar face. Haha. It is nice hanging out with her coz for one thing she's awesome and hanging out with her made me miss As a little bit less :'(. Oh yeah, Syaza was able to join us after her work shift ended and we all gave a quickie update about our lives. I find these kinds of situation so fascinating and i always keep these kinds of memories near me. I love getting to know and meet new people coz it is FUN. Especially if these people are interesting :)

If u guys read my post on Friday, I received good news from My UNI and finally i can start applying for work and not just glue my butt on the bed all the time. Hopefully this will turn up well. I still haven't decided on where to continue my studies and major in what also. I am so confused cant even make up my mind. I cant even make up my mind on what to order in a restaurant coz the people around me will give me ideas on what to eat especially Fariq. Haha. For now i would like to experience the work environment of journalism and broadcasting. I love broadcasting and i think I am able to do it too. I know i am able to succeed in journalism but not to sure if i love it that much. Sigh. I would really like to work in a fashion magazine like Marie Claire or Cleo as fashion is part of my passion too. However, i am so in love with music and would like to go into radio stations or music channels. Decisions, decisions....

I can't rush making these kinds of decision coz it will effect my whole future if i made the wrong choice. Furthermore, at one point I was thinking of taking Diploma in Music at Yamaha Music the other day. Damn, i am so messed up and easily influence. Oh well, my personality result did say I want to achieve as much as I can. I feel like i want it all. Can i have it all of it please?? I know i sound a bit greedy but work makes me happy especially it is my passion and interests.

I will dropping by soon enough. Type to ya later.

xOXo

We are the Champions!!

Hey guys!! Just a quickie update from my phone. Hehe. Hope u guys are doing fine.
Me?? Im awesome for now. I made a call this morning and it seems that my plea was granted. Yeay me!! Haha. Finally, my head is not gonna be stuck at UNI only. Hence, my next plan and strategies to a good life can take place in sometime in around 2 weeks. Hopefully things will look out for me. Wish me luck!!
I have been listening to Queen all night and 'We are the Champions' is playing over and over. I even sang so loudly in the car while i was on my way home. The car next beside me at a few trafik light tgk pelik je. Haha. Oh well, thats what i do when im feeling good.
K guys, till the next post.

Xoxo.

Redemption

I was moved by a story of a guy who auditioned for american idol in orlando. He auditioned coz he wanted to make his parents and family proud of him as a redemption of his mistake. That mistake was made when he was just 15 years old, he robbed a bank with a BB GUN and ended up in jail for it.
The feeling of letting ur parents down is definitely awful. I dun even know in what way to redeem myself to my parents.....

Get to Know Urself better! !

hey guys, i know it has been awhile since i updated my page. Been quite busy with holidays. Haha. Does that make sense?? Anyway, I came across this quiz and though of sharing it with u guys. Well, i took it and below are the results. I have written a few comments on each result. Haha.

From:http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

(People are naturally attracted to me?? Haha. Is that what has been happening?? Sweet?? OMG. That is so not me)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

(Its definitely true that i dont judge a book by its cover. Good looking people aren't necessarily my style?? But it is most of the time. Haha)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

(This is very true. Why would u share something with a person when u dun even know them)

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

(Flirt?? Seductively?? What??!! Admirers hanging off my arms?? Salah nie...)

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

(Btol Btol Btol...)

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy

(This is like a kinder version of saying that i am greedy. Haha. But it is true I DO want to achieve as much as i can)

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

(Confident? Yeke? I know that I am designated to do something great. Haha.)

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

(Wow. This is quite a bad trait for me-lah)

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve

(Mature?? Honest?? Good advice?? Haha. Really?? I am so flattered even though it is just on a screen and not someone saying it to me.)

This will be a brief post for now. I will post some pictures from my new year trip which i have been waiting for like almost a month already. Haha. Oh well, just hope that i get it soon enough.

My current status for now just enjoying my holiday while my mind is stuck at my UNI coz i am still unable to apply for my transcript. Sigh. I really wanna start work soon or else my parents gonna keep pushing me to continue my study as soon as possible. Chill la mama, papa I still wanna enjoy while I am still young. You had ur shares of teenage hood. Why cant i experience mine eh?? But i really do wanna continue my studies just not sure when and where. In other words I am so LOST.

Last week was no FUN at all coz i had to say goodbye to some of my friends. I feel like im totally stuck in a pit in Malaysia and doing nothing with my life. Everybody else is moving on to their next stage of life while im here doing nothing, i mean nothing at all besides than eating, sleeping, watching movies and thats about it i think. Sigh. Allah, please give me some guidance to make sure i make the right choice.

I had to say goodbye to Bayop and Asnawi coz they are flying to UK. Sob Sob Sob... Plus, Alya already continue her studies at Perak and i cant see her like i used to and hang out with As. Aish. Teremo plak pepagi bute ni. I could'nt send them to the airport coz i am definitely not good with saying goodbye. Tak tentu psl nt pelok kaki diorg xmelepas and menanges2 sape sanggop tgk?? Hahaha. But I am sure they will be back soon. I really hope they take care of themselves there.

Alamak! i thought that this will be a brief post. Haha. Nvm then. More for u guys to read then. Hohohoho.

Anyways, I have changed the layout for my page. Do u guys like it?? Hehe. I hope i will be able to check with u guys soon enuf. TC.

XoxO